Progress

Well if any men are reading this, it may be TMI for them so beware. Went to the midwife Tuesday and it looks like baby is making some progress tword coming into the world. I am 1 cm diaplated, 50% effaced, and she is at station 3. It's small progress but its good to know these frequent contractions i have are doing their job. Yesterday and today they have been noticably stronger and I feel them more in the lower regions rather that just the top of my uterus. I could easily go to my due date and know that the above things dont mean anything in terms of when baby will come, but any progress is good progress. Now I am just wanting to be sure that i get to the hospitol in time for my round of antibiotics, i am such a worry wort.

I got a free changing table pad w/ a cover off of freecycle, I have never had one of the good ones with the high sides before, exciting stuff. Antonio thinks i am silly, i get excited ove the little things. I told him the other day that i am so excited to open the diapers to see how little and cute they are, and he said why she is just gonna poop in them. Silly guy, at least ashlyn is equally excited to see them. She ooohhhs and aaaaahhhs over everything like i do, love having a girl in the house to share my little moments with.

Speaking of miss ashlyn, yesterday was her birthday, sniffle sniffle she is 8. We had a low key day. She requested pancakes for breakfast so we did that. When i was a little girl my mom would let us pick our birhtday dinner, so i decided to start doing that with them. She picked turkey and mashed potatoes and gravy. I think she actually wanted the whole turkey but i just did the legs and breast, she loved it and kept complimenting the potatoes and gravy. A couple days ago she decided she wanted to to get her ears peirced, so we went to walmart yesterday. She picked out her earings, sat down, but when it came time she was absolutly terrified. She was silently crying with big huge eyes. Ifelt so bad for her. So I held her down and forced her to doit while she kicked and screamed in the middle of Walmart, no i am just kidding i wouldnt do that. We decided to come back on saturday when there were two people there to do it at the same time. So Devin wanted to get her a present so we went and picked her something out, then we went to the pizza hut buffet for lunch. When we got home it was nap time and she kept telling me she regreted not getting it done. So we talked about it through out the rest of the day, a friend brought her over a present and we did her cake. We all worked together on it and ate it after dinner. Before we left for church she comes to me and says mommy i decided i dont want to get my ears pierced, i think i am beautiful just the way i am. I said ok honey its your decision. She was so precious. Tons of people at church told her happy birthday and she was just beaming all night and still this morning. I will post the little video that antonio took of her eating cake and all the pictures he took, thanks honey, later on.

Pregnancy Brain

I realized today that i totally messed up what i was trying to say on my last blog. I put 35 weeks and 1 day till i am due, i think i ment to put a number of days there at the beggining of the post. Whoops, you all probably realized i made a whoopsy but it took me a few weeks. So today i am 36 weeks and 6 days, tomorrow we are officially full term at 37 weeks. I have an appt. today and 3 more scheduled till due date. I looked at the calendar and realized on sunday it will be March, yeah. I had the craziest dream this morning. I remember waking up in the dream and Antonio told me we had the baby. And I was shocked, i said i dont remember, did we do it naturally. and he said yes you were screaming like crazy. I was really disturbed and sad cause i couldnt remember and i felt like i was totally cheated cause i wanted that memory. hten he brought me the baby and it looked like plastic, but it was still moving and stuff. I said this isnt a baby. and i tried to nurse her but her mouth was filled with plastic. I was so upset cause we had a house full of people there to welcome the baby and they are all telling me congrats and stuff and i am like this isnt our baby its a doll. But then my belly wasnt big anymore and my abs hurt like i had just pushed out a baby. I kept asking Antonio to tell me what had happened during the labor and delivery. Then my dream switched to us weighing the baby, and this one was a real baby who was quite large, and she weighed 8 lbs 12 oz. I will freak if that is really what she weighs. i was really disturbed when i woke up from this dream, it was so real. The baby wasnt quite as active this morning and it kinda freaked me out. So i was really happy when she bounced around a little. I remember when i was pregnant with Ashlyn i had a dream that i gave birth to twins and one was doll, hmmm is there a common thing going on here with me having girls and dreaming they are dolls, crazy. My husband should get a kick out of this dream!!! i am trying to decide if we should start our little "vacation"from school now instead of waiting till baby is actually born. I am so tired and grumpy and the kids are really grumpy lately too. I cant leave them alone for a minute or they start arguing and it sometimes escalates into someone hurting the other or both of them. So i was considering doing some fun stuff over the next couple weeks, but then i have to consider there isnt much to do around here close. I would have to drive about an hour away and i definatly am not up for that. I guess i need to sit down and think of some things to do and ask Antonio what he thinks of that idea. I am just thinking that maybe i will be more up for doing school when baby is 3 weeks old or so. I dont know it could totally backfire on me. We will have to see.

35 Weeks and 1 Day....

till my due date, but hey who's counting!! Obviously I am. We are ready as far as things go, we have been blessed with a ton of clothes. I think I spent about $15 on some second hand things and the rest we got from friends and freecycle. At my baby shower I got mostly 3-6 months and up, which was totally God cause we had no older girl clothes, and just a few days before the shower i was thinking that we needed to start stocking up on the next size. The shower was great, we had so much fun. There were a few games that I had never played before and the ladies from church really put their hearts into it and encouraged me.



It still seems so sureal (SP??) that we will be adding another child to our home. I am switching betweeen excitement and scared and the need to plan out life for after baby. i think the labor process is what is scaring me at this point, I need to stop watching baby stories and other shows with women laboring. I asked antonio why he though i was more freaked out this time and he said it's cause i have done it naturally and know how much its gonna hurt. I told him he was probably right! I have been praying a lot about it and asking that God make it that we do have a totally natural birth. Hopefully the 3rd will go fast.



Baby is really growing, she is very crowded in there now. i can feel her little feet in my ribs pushing out as far as they will let her. I definatly cry out in pain frequently these days as she pushes on other important and sensitive internal organs. I enjoy being able to play name that body part at this stage. Ashlyn loves to join me, it's great to have a girl in the house cause the boys dont get into it like we do. I will put Devins hand on my belly and ask if he wants to feel the baby hiccup and he will pull his hand away and then i will say you dont want to feel buddy and he'll say with a deep breath ok mom. He is training already on how to make his women happy. I cant wait to start putting all Kailyn's cute little clothes on her, I have dresses for days. She is going to be Ashlyn and I's little dress up doll.



Ashlyn's birthday is coming up in a couple weeks, I cant beleive it, she will be 8. Where does the time go. We are thinking of having a combined party this year. My Mom and Step Dad may come out in April and since they usually dont get to come to the kids b-day parties i thought we would combine Ashlyn, Devin, and Kailyn's and celebrate with them and all our friends. Ashlyn is already planning decorations and themes, she is so cute, she wants a lot of the to be homemade.



The kids are both learning lots of new things. Ashlyn is discovering that she can read a lot of words in most picture books and is getting more confident. She has been reading to Devin and it is really cute. devin has the stories memorized so as she is sounding some words out he is telling her what they are. She doesnt like that very much. And Devin has started a learining letters craze, to go along with his numbers which he has learned alot about. Our daily life is filled with Mommy how do you spell ______? And he tries to make words on the fridge magnets, he gets a little frustrated when he doesnt come up with a real word. Ashlyn and I also started some time telling, i figured we better start that soon. I can tell her brain is ready for it at this point, it wasnt a year or so ago, she picked up the hour and half hour with out a blink of an eye. Next we move on the quarter hours and getting the minutes down. I notice that her brain needs time to process things,if we do to much she gets overwhelmed. I would have to say that is one of the reasons i love homeschooling, we get to go at their pace.

Well thats all for now...i hope everyone is well.