She's Here

For those of you who may not have received an email from me here are the details of the baby. Kailyn Danielle Wilson made her arrival at 8:02 pm on Thursday March 12th. She weighed 6lbs5.3 oz and is 18.3 in long. She is my tiny peanut after having an 8 lb + brother and sister. I will post my birth story after i catch up on some rest.

Appointment, another TMI Post

I went yesterday to see my midwife and we are making more progress. I am dialated to 3 cm and 60-65% effaced. I have also been having bloody show since the appt. that easily could be from the exam or it could mean we are on our way. Her educated guess is i will go this week sometime. Today I since i got up from my nap my contractions have been stronger almost making me stop walking through them. But no consistency in time yet, so we will see what God has in store. Please pray for me to be surrendered to God's time and also to have completely drug free delivery. Thanks in advance.

Realization

I have come to one, as I must at many points in my life. I was having some surrender issues with having this baby. I picked up a book that I really like, The Victory of Surrender" by Gordon Fergeson (SP?). Its a great book on being surrendered to God and his plans. So the other night while I had a nice soak in a hot bath I read one of my favorite chapters. It was just what I needed. When i start giving into my emotions of excitetment and wanting to control things i get unsurrendered. Not that being excited about a new baby is bad, but when thats all you think, talk, and daydream about then it becomes a problem. So I am trying to recognize when i am just being an excited mom and when it's getting a little over the top.

as far as baby and mom go , we are doing well. I am waddling big time now, she is definatly engaged in the pelvis. We see the midwife today and will find out if we have progressed any. I have actually felt a lot better since last Wed. not sure why but i am so we will just claim it and roll on.

Ashlyn is just bubbling with excitement over when baby will come. I think i gave her too much infomation today. she asked why she couldnt come to my appt with me and i told her cause i needed privacy with the midwife. I expalined how she would check my cervix to see how dialated I am. I probably shouldnt have, now that i look back. Ooops, too late now. Hopefully she will just forget, fingers crossed.

I will keep you all posted...

Anticipation

It is really hard to not want to rush things along. I want baby to stay in as long as she needs to so she can breathe and eat and be healthy. On that note if she is ready to do all those things I am all for her coming 2 weeks early. We had another appt. with the midwife Monday and i dialated another cm so we are at 2 now, still 50% effaced and at station 3. but she said my cervix is super soft. I think last night she worked her way down into my pelvis a little more, i felt a weird pop/click and have felt a little weird since then. I feel really stretched in my belly today and I am really tired and need to stay off my feet. so with this new stuff its hard to not hope that the end may be near. I've been praying lots, trying to keep my mind right.

On another note, we have great new neighbors that we have been playing with a lot. THe little girl is 4 and all thekids enjoy each other. It's really hard to not spend the whole day playing, I am trying to be disciplined but i love to hang out and chat too. Well I honestly cant think of another thing to report so i guess i will keep things short.

Progress

Well if any men are reading this, it may be TMI for them so beware. Went to the midwife Tuesday and it looks like baby is making some progress tword coming into the world. I am 1 cm diaplated, 50% effaced, and she is at station 3. It's small progress but its good to know these frequent contractions i have are doing their job. Yesterday and today they have been noticably stronger and I feel them more in the lower regions rather that just the top of my uterus. I could easily go to my due date and know that the above things dont mean anything in terms of when baby will come, but any progress is good progress. Now I am just wanting to be sure that i get to the hospitol in time for my round of antibiotics, i am such a worry wort.

I got a free changing table pad w/ a cover off of freecycle, I have never had one of the good ones with the high sides before, exciting stuff. Antonio thinks i am silly, i get excited ove the little things. I told him the other day that i am so excited to open the diapers to see how little and cute they are, and he said why she is just gonna poop in them. Silly guy, at least ashlyn is equally excited to see them. She ooohhhs and aaaaahhhs over everything like i do, love having a girl in the house to share my little moments with.

Speaking of miss ashlyn, yesterday was her birthday, sniffle sniffle she is 8. We had a low key day. She requested pancakes for breakfast so we did that. When i was a little girl my mom would let us pick our birhtday dinner, so i decided to start doing that with them. She picked turkey and mashed potatoes and gravy. I think she actually wanted the whole turkey but i just did the legs and breast, she loved it and kept complimenting the potatoes and gravy. A couple days ago she decided she wanted to to get her ears peirced, so we went to walmart yesterday. She picked out her earings, sat down, but when it came time she was absolutly terrified. She was silently crying with big huge eyes. Ifelt so bad for her. So I held her down and forced her to doit while she kicked and screamed in the middle of Walmart, no i am just kidding i wouldnt do that. We decided to come back on saturday when there were two people there to do it at the same time. So Devin wanted to get her a present so we went and picked her something out, then we went to the pizza hut buffet for lunch. When we got home it was nap time and she kept telling me she regreted not getting it done. So we talked about it through out the rest of the day, a friend brought her over a present and we did her cake. We all worked together on it and ate it after dinner. Before we left for church she comes to me and says mommy i decided i dont want to get my ears pierced, i think i am beautiful just the way i am. I said ok honey its your decision. She was so precious. Tons of people at church told her happy birthday and she was just beaming all night and still this morning. I will post the little video that antonio took of her eating cake and all the pictures he took, thanks honey, later on.